A lot of my best work comes from a place of irritation – this is one of those.
I have never wanted children. Ever. Yet, when I tell people this they usually respond with something like “you will change your mind” or “what if your future husband wants kids?” Which, is so very frustrating.. So, I’m making a piece about it. I am making cloth menstrual pads and beading/embroidering them with things people say to me when I tell them I don’t want children.
Currently in process, the below piece is titled “You will change your mind.” Made with red beads, poly thread, and cotton.
I have been experimenting a lot with eggs over the past few months. Dying them, embroidering them, emptying them, filling them, painting them, the list goes on…
I’ve recently tried painting them gold (pictured below) and filling them with things like lint, hair, wool – soft, nestlike stuff.
The three above I have painted in different ways and the two whole ones are filled. The gold paint still needs some layers, but I have really enjoyed the white/gold combo on these little guys. The insides add a weird something to each one, but I can’t tell if I like what it is doing or not… I’ll have to continue to play with them.
Goals: I’m hoping to create sculptures that are almost entirely eggs. I love the idea of eggs and nests and I’m really working and thinking about ideas focused on the delicate/protective thing that is happing with them.
Struggles: Eggs are generally difficult to work with because of how delicate they are. They can also have a tendency to be over used and overdone.
I also began working with ink and ink washes on the eggs (pictured below) and I have really been loving the black and white and the running that happens in the cracks and into the texture of the shell.
I enjoy how in emphasizes the breaks in the shell, showing how delicate they are while also highlighting the stone-like surface. I’m also just a fan of black and white, so. They look nice alongside the gold pieces and I’m hoping to work on some combos soon.
Struggles: Ink is so motherfuckin messy. I’m struggling to keep it in the locations I want it to stay in.
Overall, I’m really excited about what this project and this work could potentially be and to continue to work on it for awhile.
My day job has kept me quite busy over the past few months, but I have been working on some textiles during that time!
One project I have been working on and off, my Home embroideries. I had been attempting to just capture the facade of the places I have lived via embroidery. This way I found myself looking up the apartments I had lived in, and even looking at images of my childhood home in attempts to accurately portray the exteriors. This was not very inspiring and therefore left me ignoring the project for a time. When I began working at it again, I realized that my memories of my homes are almost exclusively interior spaces, which began me working on my current embroidery. This piece is of a place I lived with my now-ex-boyfriend. It was the first time I lived with a guy, and I have a lot of wonderful, terrible, and just soothing memories. The importance of this Home was it was the first place I really felt was MY home after moving out of my parents house. I’ve found that most people have a similar place like this within their own lives, a sort of first home on your own phenomenon. A weird passage into adulthood and your individuality separate from your parents. Below are some images of my progress on this piece so far!
My memory is far from perfect when it comes to exact recreation of the objects, but my main goal is to embody the feeling that that space gave/gives me (more about accuracy of feelings than objects).
Other thoughts on this project:
I really enjoy the domesticity of doilies and I chose them for that reason. I think they just solidly reinforce the idea of a Home, whatever that means for you.
An idea I have been really interested in is individuality, identity, and privacy and how those work together – and with this project I have been thinking a lot about apartments, how you are living and making a home in this temporary space that others have done the same, and what really makes it yours as an individual. I’m still chewing on some thoughts about it, but I am really enjoying the progression of this project.
“Gray Area” a knitted list of people I know who have been sexually harassed or assaulted.
I started a project that is working very similarly to my “Secrets” knits. I’ve been calling it “Gray Area.” I began this process by reaching out on Facebook/Insta etc. to ask people to like or comment if they have been sexually harassed or assaulted (with less public options for those who need/want). I gathered over 50 names. I then “translated” them into binary code with knit and purl instead of 1 and 0. Then, I began to knit! I am currently about halfway through the names, though I’m sure I will accumulate more before I can finish. I also plan to create this project in two other ways, experiment and see what fits best with what I want the project to do.
This image is approximately 15 names in. You can see that there is a border that surrounds the actual names section, which is a different texture. This creates a pattern – that technically could be deciphered – of the names, each name supporting each other to create this piece.
I chose gray for the yarn, not only because it is a neutral color, but also because so much sexual harassment and sexual assault is considered a “gray area” – hence the title.
Other thoughts on this project:
The goal is to show the extreme number of people effected by sexual harassment and assault without exposing the victims specifically. These are just people I know (and I’m from a small town, I’m introverted, and I honestly just don’t know that many people), and it is still more than 50 people – that is insane.
Another goal and just general thought about this project is the support. Each name that I knit is reliant on the previous name and the name after them to hold, they are supporting each other through the stitches. Not only that, each name that I knit requires me to think about them, give them my time and energy and I think that gives importance to those people and their experiences and struggles beyond just them being part of the 50+names.
I’m excited to see where both of these projects end up and hopefully I’ll have time to post more regularly about them!
I have been so very busy with my new job that it leaves only a small amount of time for artwork and often even leaves me to tired or worn out to even make anything.
But! There have been a few projects that have inspired me to work a lot harder and get some stuff made. A collaboration between the campus gallery and the campus natural history museum encouraged me to go see some bird and egg specimens, these specimens have sparked a whole whirlwind of ideas and have me trying all sorts of different things.
As you may know from my previous posts, I absolutely love birds. I had been drawing a lot of them recently, and still am, but after my trip to the natural history museum on campus I started thinking that I needed to go above and beyond those.
Below are some projects I started as well as some of the specimens that inspired me.
(I apologize for the poor image quality!)
Anyway! I am so excited to continue on my weird, bird-inspired, adventure and I hope it keeps going as well as it has been!
I haven’t had a lot of time for art making with my new job, but I came across some fabric scraps I dyed a few years back and was suddenly inspired. Simple, kind of gestural plant embroidery. I am hoping to create more of these over time as I have the time, but I think this is a good start!
I was assigned a project in my introductory textiles class in undergrad to create a self – portrait, that didn’t necessarily have to be a “portrait,” using embroidery. Obviously I got a bit introspective and considered who I am, what makes me who I am and how to portray that with some thread. Being a homebody my home is a very important part of who I am, it also can represent where I came from, etc. So, I made an embroidery of my childhood home – it was my first time really embroidering anything so it was a bit of a mess, but I made it. I embroidered on a doily, the most domestic fabric out there. This ended up in a Student Juried Exhibition and then I later gifted it to my grandmother.
Now, recently I have been feeling inclined to create a series illustrating my different Homes. Places I’ve lived, places I feel safe, etc. This is the beginning of this series, basically an improved recreation of that first Home embroidery. I will create one for every place I have felt at home. I have very high expectations for myself and this series and hopefully I will be able not only to live up to those expectations, but also be able to create a coherent statement to accompany them.